Rilo Kiley — “After Hours (Velvet Underground cover)” from the single for “The Execution of All Things”
oh, someday I know someone will look into my eyes/and say, “hello, you’re my very special one”
I felt free after things ended with my ex-girlfriend but that didn’t mean I felt good. I was so shocked by what had happened that I began starting each day with stress vomiting. I pretty much stopped eating and sleeping. Not on purpose, but because I just couldn’t. I lost around fifteen pounds in two weeks; I felt like a zombie.
During this time, I came home one day to find a big box in front of my apartment door. I looked around for some reason for its presence before taking it inside. I opened it to find a chocolate-dipped fortune cookie bigger than my head. It was covered in dinosaur sprinkles and the fortune had lyrics from Slowreader’s “I Like You Most.” I couldn’t believe this thing was in my lap. I laughed for the first time in weeks and broke off a piece of the cookie to eat. Within a few hours, I had eaten the whole thing.
Although the sender was supposed to be anonymous, the company included a receipt, which included the name of a good friend of mine who lived back home. I called to thank her for it and she told me that this was her big gesture, that she wanted to be with me. I was flattered but I wasn’t anywhere near ready to date anyone at the time nor did I want to harm our friendship. She said it was ok, that she’d wait for me. I worried about her feelings and told her she shouldn’t do that but there was no dissuading her.
When I was home a month later, she asked if we could hang out and I said yes. It was fine but didn’t go the way either of us hoped: I wanted to be friends, she wanted me to fall in love with her. She made me a mix that, until I got a mix from the man who would become my husband, was probably the best mix I’d ever received in a romantic sense. It had Hefner’s “I Took Her Love for Granted” which instantly elevated it but it also had Rilo Kiley covering “After Hours” by the Velvet Underground, a B-side to the single for “The Execution of All Things” that I had never heard before. I loved it but I also felt incredibly guilty for not feeling the same way about her. We sat in my car and I turned off the mix.
“I don’t want to be together like that,” I said.
“I know,” she said. “You’ve just had a rough few years and I want you to know what you deserve.”
And while the minute she said that, it felt like a weight had been lifted, I also realized that every person I’d loved romantically had loved me in the most selfish ways possible. They didn’t think about what was best for me; they just wanted what they wanted when they wanted it. My friend and I kissed once and it confirmed for me that we wouldn’t work but I left with the knowledge that I wasn’t just worth being loved but being loved well.
Coming up: Rilo Kiley
Thank you, Jon & Travis & Kerry & Jon & Ryan & Dan & Ben & Scott & Mark & Katherine & Dan & Brian & Chelsea & Julia, and especially to Dave for pulling it all together so expertly! (We promise that’s it with Bruce Springsteen posts on this blog for a fair while…)
Next week it’s back to regular (but just as great!) business with a week-long exploration of LA indie rockers Rilo Kiley.
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See you tomorrow.
I’m so excited for this!
The Postal Service
Live at Barclays Center. Brooklyn NY. 6/14/13
Left of the Dial Radio Playlist - 1/25/13
Thanks to those of you who tuned in to last night’s broadcast of Left of the Dial. It honestly felt like one of the best shows I’ve had in a long time in terms of playlist quality; maybe this whole ‘losing all the music on my harddrive and rebuilding from scratch’ thing is paying off. Check out the full playlist below and stream the available tracks via Spotify at the embedded link at the bottom. As always, be sure to tune in again next Friday from 6 to 8 PM.
- 1. Hymie’s Basement - “21st Century Pop Song”
- 2. The Dismemberment Plan - “The City”
- 3. Broken Social Scene - “Almost Crimes” (Radio Kills remix)
- 4. Bleeding Rainbow - “Pink Ruff”
- 5. Television - “Venus”
- 6. Hallelujah The Hills - “Get Me In A Room”
- 7. Unknown Mortal Orchestra - “So Good At Being In Trouble”
- 8. Sidewalk Dave - “Cayenne”
- 9. Titus Andronicus - “Upon Viewing Oregon’s Landscape With The Flood of Detritus”
- 10. Suns - “Be Good Boy”
- 11. Iceage - “Coalition”
- 12. X - “We’re Desperate”
- 13. Pylon - “Crazy”
- 14. Rilo Kiley - “Portions For Foxes”
- 15. Screaming Females - “Poison Arrow”
- 16. Ducktails - “Ivy Covered House”
- 17. Marti Jones - “The Element Within Her” (Elvis Costello cover)
- 18. My Bloody Valentine - “When You Sleep”
- 19. Purity Ring - “Grandloves”
- 20. Eskmo - “We Are All Terrestrial”
- 21. Nosaj Thing - “Home”
- 22. Small Black - “Photojournalist”
- 23. Waxahatchee - “Peace and Quiet”
- 24. Wye Oak - “Civilian”
- 25. Comadre - “Hack”
- 26. Black Moth Super Rainbow - “Windshield Smasher”
- 27. The Magnetic Fields - “Strange Powers”
- 28. Grouper - “Living Room”
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Left of the Dial Radio Playlist - 1/18/13
Thanks to everybody who tuned in to my most recent radio broadcast on Friday. My guest DJ Malcolm and I had a lot of fun spinning tracks for those of you who listened. Check out the full playlist below and stream the available tracks via Spotify at the bottom.
- 1. WHY? - “January Twenty Something”
- 2. Animal Collective - “The Purple Bottle”
- 3. Belle and Sebastian - “My Wandering Days Are Over”
- 4. Bob Dylan - “The Man In Me”
- 5. Christopher Owens - “Love Is In The Ear of the Listener”
- 6. Junip - “Line of Fire”
- 7. Paul Simon - “The Obvious Child”
- 8. Laura Stevenson & the Cans - “Beets Untitled” (Requested by Sam)
- 9. The New Pornographers - “Myriad Harbour” (Requested by oceanofantics)
- 10. The Postal Service - “Nothing Better”
- 11. JJ - “Ecstasy”
- 12. Rilo Kiley - “The Execution of All Things”
- 13. Destroyer - “The Sublimation Hour”
- 14. California X - “Curse of the Nightmare”
- 15. Youth Lagoon - “Dropla”
- 16. Sky Ferreira - “Everything Is Embarrassing”
- 17. Elvis Costello & The Attractions - “Shipbuilding”
- 18. Andrew Bird - “Anonanimal”
- 19. Ellen McIlwaine - “Can’t Find My Way Home”
- 20. Four Tet - “Angel Echoes”
- 21. Antonio Carlos Jobim - “Agua de Beber”
- 22. King Geedorah - “Anti-Matter” (Feat. MF Doom & Mr. Fantastik)
- 23. Bonga - “Mona Ki Ngi Xica”
- 24. Bear in Heaven - “Beast in Peace”
- 25. Beirut - “Venice”
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Lewis and his Blog Presents: A Hurricane Relief / Industrial Collapse Party Playlist
I could get used to this whole ‘Northeast hurricane’ phenomenon becoming an annual thing. I made a playlist for myself during Hurricane Irene last year, and this time around I thought that I’d share one with all of you. I chose 17 tracks of moody, contemplative music, ranging from elegiac folk to reverberant surf rock and pummeling drone. Alternatively, you could just listen to Mount Eerie’s Ocean Roar and Wind’s Poem on repeat. Either method should provide anybody living in Hurricane Sandy’s path with a fitting soundtrack over the next couple days.
- 1. Rilo Kiley - “The Good That Won’t Come Out”
- 2. The Microphones - “I Want Wind To Blow”
- 3. Bright Eyes - “Jejune Stars”
- 4. The Hiya Dunes - “Storms & Pipes”
- 5. Grizzly Bear - “Sleeping Ute”
- 6. Robert Plant & Alison Krauss - “Killing The Blues”
- 7. The Rural Alberta Advantage - “Tornado ‘87”
- 8. The Wrens - “This Boy Is Exhausted”
- 9. Sharon Van Etten - “Sychophant”
- 10. Grinderman - “When My Baby Comes”
- 11. Duster - “Earth Moon Transit”
- 12. Converge - “Coral Blue”
- 13. Alcest - “Souvenirs D’un Autre Monde”
- 14. Mount Eerie - “Waves”
- 15. Godspeed You! Black Emperor - “Moya”
- 16. Built To Spill - “Things Fall Apart”
- 17. Bob Dylan - “Shelter From The Storm”
Enjoy the mix and stay safe during the storm, East Coast friends!
Left of the Dial Radio Playlist - 10/26/12
Huge thanks to everyone who tuned in to Left of the Dial last night, especially those of you who made requests! Life is incredibly hectic for me right now with college applications and work and school related things, but it’s great to have this blog and this radio show to relax and just listen to music for a couple hours every week. I really appreciate the positive response the show always gets!
Below is the full playlist from last night’s broadcast. At the bottom, you can stream all the available tracks via Spotify by clicking the embedded link. Tune in again next Friday from 6 to 8!
- 1. Waxahatchee - “Grass Stain”
- 2. Rilo Kiley - “The Execution of All Things”
- 3. The Strokes - “Machu Picchu”
- 4. The Thermals - “Here’s Your Future”
- 5. The Ambulars - “We’re Golden”
- 6. The Flaming Lips - “Buggin’ (Remix)”
- 7. Donovan Wolfington - “Hell”
- 8. The Get Up Kids - “Action & Action”
- 9. Punch - “Do It Yourself”
- 10. Cerce - “Weary”
- 11. Hostage Calm - “Woke Up Next To A Body”
- 12. Mogwai - “Cody” (Requested by withlugosi)
- 13. Boris - “Hope” (Requested by rainbowsrillusions)
- 14. The Wrens - “This Boy Is Exhausted”
- 15. Mount Eerie - “Domesticated Dog”
- 16. Saturday Looks Good To Me - “Meet Me By The Water”
- 17. Duster - “Heading For The Door”
- 18. Talking Heads - “This Must Be The Place (Naive Melody)”
- 19. People Get Ready - “Cathedral”
- 20. The Music Tapes - “The Dark Is Singing Songs (Sleepy Time Down South)”
- 21. The Decemberists - “16 Military Wives”
- 22. Sufjan Stevens - “The Age of Adz”
- 23. Frank Ocean - “Lost”
- 24. Kendrick Lamar - “Good Kid”
- 25. Destroyer - “Poor In Love”
- 26. Chelsea Wolfe - “The Way We Used To” (Requested by sydmegasnake)
- 27. The Mountain Goats - “Night Light”
- 28. Andrew Jackson Jihad - “Truckers are the Blood”
- 29. Jeff Mangum - “I Love How You Love Me” (Phil Spector cover)
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